Today marks three weeks since I had LASIK surgery done on my right eye. Those 21 days have been amazing and frustrating at the same time. I've seen things in a new way, and I've had to once again learn the value of patience as my eyes and my brain try to adjust to a new reality.
My vision is still fluctuating, which is apparently normal. It is, however, maddening at times. I have to remind myself that my brain is stil adapting to using one eye for reading and one eye for distance. That's a hell of a change to have to adapt to, and I'm constantly reminding myself of that. I've promised myself that I would give it two months before I draw any conclusions, and I'm not even halfway there yet. The problem is that I want everything to be perfect right now, and that's just not the way this works.
I saw my ophthamologist this morning, and though he seemed to understand my frustration, he wasn't overly sympathetic. His response (paraphrased slightly) was "Your vision is 20/15. Stop your whining!" OK, so he's got a point. Perhaps I DO just need to relax and let things happen. Intellectually, I understood what the adjustment process was supposed to involve before I got into this. Emotionally, I'm finding the process to be a bit more than I had bargained for.
Looking on the bright side, my vision IS 20/15. OK, so it's not a perfect 20/15; my vision is blurry from time to time, and does fluctuate. But when things are working, 20/15 is pretty amazing. Talk about seeing things with new eyes. When I'm driving over the Kemah bridge and I look out over Galveston Bay, it's a truly breathtaking sight. It's a view I've seen for seven years now, but I've never seen it quite like this. Unbelievable....
This truly is an ongoing process. As long as I keep reminding myself of that, things will be fine. Sometimes, patience is not my strong suit...and THAT'S no understatement....
Now if I could just stop looking for my damn glasses....
