It has been almost six weeks now since I had LASIK surgery. To say that it has been something of an emotional roller coaster would be an understatment. I certainly have no regrets or second thoughts. Even so, getting used to the changes in my vision was not quite the picnic that my ophthamalogist suggested it would be. My vision is still fluctuating, which is to be expected for another few weeks. I had expected that.
What I have noticed over the past few days is that most of the difficulties I'd been experiencing with the monovision seem to have resolved themselves. It's difficult to describe, but things FEEL different, and I've noticed much less difficulty with my vision. Perhaps the best way to describe it is that I'm beginning to feel as if I've turned the corner, and my concerns regarding whether or not the monovision would ultimately be successful are beginning to wane. I'm reluctant to get too excited yet- after all, it's been just a few short days since I noticed this change. Nonetheless, I am very, very hopeful.
I am seldom ever aware of my vision now, which I'm taking to be a good thing. It seems to me that if I'm not thinking about it, then I must be adapting well. I just have to remember that my vision is still going to be fluctuating for perhaps several more weeks. It's still an ongoing process, and I still have to be patient, but I am beginning to realize that there is reason for me to be excited. After wearing glasses for 34 years, having 20/15 vision IS pretty exciting.
Sometimes I will catch myself staring at something, and I'll realize that it is so sharp and crystal clear that it almost hurts to look at it. The only other time that I can remember experiencing anything remotely similar was when I first got my glasses. I was ten years old, and when I put on my first pair of prescription glasses, my world was suddenly clear, crisp, and sharp. It was an amazing and yet almost frightening transformation. I'd always thought that the way I saw things (fuzzy, as it turns out) was the way they really were. Suddenly, a new and much clearer world was revealed, and it was almost more than I could handle.
I'm older now, and perhaps better-equipped to handle such an abrupt change, but it is no less amazing now than when I was ten. The difference now, of course, is that this is permanent. I can't remove anything and go back to the way my vision used to be. I'm learning to like that.
Somehow, though, I need to find a way to convince myself to stop looking for my glasses....