Reach out for someone else if the person you speak to does not respond adequately. You suddenly might discover that others are combative. Let go, understanding that everyone has the right to be who he or she is. Even you lose control sometimes.
That was my horoscope in yesterday's Houston Chronicle. Granted, I pay read my horoscope about as often as I read Pravda, but for some reason that caught my eye...perhaps because it hit me where I live. The past year has for me been an exercise in relearning the rules. After being married and experiencing a relationship that runs under a certain set of rules, I've had to relearn that...guess what??...not everyone lives by those same rules. Go figure, eh?
You'd think that in my lates 40s I'd have already figured this out, but I'm constantly surprised at the lessons I'm relearning because I've frankly forgotten them. Don't use something, and eventually you're going to run the risk of losing it. While I may not have "lost" it, the remembering part of the equation is taking a fair bit longer than I might have expected. This is not where I expected to find myself at this point in my life, but as long as I'm here, I might as well figure out which end is up.
Right now, I'm just trying to be myself...whoever that happens to be on a particular day (apologies to Bob Dylan). The rest of it I'm learning (or relearning) as I go. Perhaps someday I'll figure all of this out.
