Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark. Professionals built the Titanic.
- Richard Jeni
I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to those of you who have been kind enough to weigh in on my post from Monday, in which I talked about my ongoing struggles with ADD and various and assorted self-defeating behaviors. The support means a lot to me, and even though I will never meet most of you, it does help knowing that I have company in my corner. There have been a number of people who have contacted me in ways outside of the comments, and I truly appreciate the sentiments and support that all of you have offered. To the few of you who have been something less than supportive...well, let's just say that you serve as an example of why I shouldn't take myself too seriously.
I'm not going to detail my struggles in this space on a day by day or blow by blow basis, but I also don't want to keep it hidden. As I work to get a handle on my ADD, I will share what I can when I think there's a chance that my story might just be of value to someone else. There's nothing to be ashamed of, and my struggle is neither new, unique, or particularly different from what millions of adults with ADD have long had to cope with. That I was just diagnosed 4-5 months ago means I'm still trying to wrap my head around the realities of ADD, but it's not as if I'm blazing a trail here. I'm grateful to have resources available and people in my life willing to offer a shoulder and/or an ear when necessary. I'm in the process of determining if medication might be appropriate, and I'm continuing counseling as I have for the past two years. My hope is that this combination will help me get to a place more peaceful and less volatile than where I've been for the past few months.
There are certain aspects of my life that are out of my control. Que sera, sera, no? I have hope, but for now I recognize that I need to work on improving and fixing what I can. Perhaps if I can do that, other things will unfold in a positive manner. I've come to understand and accept that I may have to live with the consequences of my inability to get over myself, and if bridges cannot be rebuilt, then that's what I'll find a way to deal with. Control and influence what I can, and hope for the best for the things I cannot. At this point, there's not much else I can reasonably do.
SERENITY NOW!!!
Stay tuned....
