Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the Force. Mourn them do not. Miss them do not. Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed, that is.
- Yoda
Over the past couple days, I’ve been dealing with the loss of a friend. It hasn’t been fun, but I know that I’m not the first person to travel this path, and I’m grateful to those who’ve sent kind words and thoughts my way. Getting used to the house sans Sundance is going to take awhile. It feels WAY too quiet, and the hole created by his absence is something that’s going to take awhile to fill.
Animals become family members very quickly for me. Sundance and I had our routines, and those came to mean a great deal to me. Having those taken away so suddenly was more than just a shock; it’s left me with a hole in my heart. I understand grief- Lord knows I’ve been down this road far too many times- and I know that time will bestow the gift of healing. I know that before long, I’ll be thinking less of how we found him after he died and more of the joy and happiness he brought into my life. It’s just hard to understand that at the moment.
Erin used to laugh at me for the way I spoiled Sundance and how attached I was to him. She was right, of course…and I loved it. There was a rhythm and a pattern to our relationship that was dependable and special…and I miss that terribly.
It’s difficult to even think about getting another cat just now. In time, I’ll get there. Erin and I will discuss it, and we’ll consider the possibilities. When I’ll be ready to do that is difficult to say, but I’ll know it when I am. Until then, I’ll deal with the pain and the grief while I try to remember the joy and the love Sundance brought into my life.
Thank you for the kindness and the understanding. It means more than you know.
